LIFE MAY NOT GIVE US THE OPPORTUNITY
LIFE MAY NOT GIVE US THE OPPORTUNITY
I lived the majority of my childhood with my grandmother, everything that I am today proceeds from her, she was always there for me even when she was not invited, I loved her so much because she was my backbone. I lived with her for years before death took her away from me in 2019.
Since 2019, there has been an irreplaceable vagueness in my life, my life has never been the same since she left. Over these years, I have lived with a pang of particular guilt in my heart. Anytime I remember how she died without saying goodbye to me, I feel guilty the more.
The guilt that I was never able to look into her eyes and say, MAMA, I LOVE YOU, I was never able to give her a warm hug with a simple THANK YOU. Anytime she did anything for me I would see it as her responsibility and my time will come soon to pay her back.
I thought grandma would wait until I am blessed, I thought grandma will wait till I become a priest, I thought she was going to wait until she sees how many gifts I will spoil her with. But No, mama did not wait for me, I never got to tell her how much I loved and valued her, I was never able to tell her: MAMA, YOU ARE MY WORLD AND CAN NOT BE COMPLETE WITHOUT YOU. Mama traveled to the great beyond without saying goodbye to me. Oh my world, my tears, how heartbroken and pained I am even as I write this article. It hurts. I should have loved you more and shown that to you when you were alive.
Dear Friends, do not wait till you have the whole world at your command before you profess your love to the people you love. Don't wait till you have enough before you appreciate your parents and benefactors. Life may not give you the opportunity to do that tomorrow and the pains may live on.
Tell people how you feel about them now that they are alive, and let them feel special and loved. Celebrate them now that they are alive, let them live in peace before they will rest in peace.
Mama, wherever you are, my world is not complete without you, and as you can see I miss you at every daybreak. I wish you are around to cook for me again, teach me again, advise me again, pray for me again and above all to see the man I am gradually becoming. I love you, I know it makes no sense now but I pray to meet you hereafter as my grandma again and express this to you.
Continue to rest on Mama.
I miss you.
I will make you proud, I promise.
I am the pen in the hand of the writing God.
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